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Friday 30 November 2012

ALMOST IS NEVER ENOUGH... part 1.

Kringggg..


The bell is ringing, as I just started putting down my pen on the desk. Miss Analyn is giving us her the last task for today's English class.


'Let's go, Anne', Syai my seating partner in class asked me. 'Do you have extra money today?', I tried to put up with her. She nod and smirk. Yeap. Shes one of the girls in class that I befriend because of her wit and wise. She is wise, when it comes to giving advice for her one-and-only-problematic-friend😂.


We walk together pass the main hall in the middle of our school building. 'What are they doing?'. I asked Syai, as we stop amd watched few students practicing on the stage. 'Madam Julia said it is for the upcoming talent show. So they are practicing for it. Why cant talent be discovered just that, without any pre-show practice? Isnt that what talent are all about?'.


Hahaha. I laughed out loud as I heard that, bit I didnt bother to answer. We continue until we reach our usual spot in the canteen.

'Anne, youve got letter', Bree hands me the letter in her hand. Bree is my another friend, yet Im not that close to her. She put on her headphone as start drinking her cold Cola, with smoked chicken burger. This girl never bother about her health at all, as she always said a netballer will never get fat.


This school is where I recieve my formal elemantary lesson ever since we moved here from my old hometown.


I left that place with many memories, my friends, even few of our family members still live there. How I miss my time there with my friends, when autumn came, we collected the fallen leaves and whoever collected them the most, win.


'Cheeky smile! And may we know what cause that dangerous smile of yours?', Aubrey join our table. I smile again at her, just pretending not to pay attention to her question.


Fifteen minutes has passed since we sat together at the table. Aubrey told us that she will be going on vacation with her family this summer holiday and she asked us to spend time with her before their departure.


Bree and Syai will be around during the holiday, and we plan to work part time in the town.


'Okay, lets go. Our beloved principle will be announcing about the summer holiday class and all', I grab my bag and move faster ahead, leaving my friends behind as I heard them screaming my name and run.


The blue envelope letter is still in my hand, carefully saved in my jeans' pocket. I knew who the recipient are, feel a little bit excited and yes, Im hiping his letter to arrive a little bit sooner.


I have song in my head, and pink clouds started to appear, I smile and cant wait to read it at home.


*************

Ive known him since I was litte. We used to play together, with Shawn, Delilah and Rosey at Nanny Thompson's house. Mrs Thompson lives alone and she is so kind to be our nanny. Our parents mostly working and she is like a hero to them .


I still can remember the smell of her freshly baked scon and white bread, with chocolate spread and strawberry jam when I arrived at her home.


Zayn usually the first one to arrive and also the one who go home later than us.  His father works at a place a bit far from ours. He always has this handsome smile even when he was 10 at that time. His hair already combed neatly by his mother before he came.

He greeted us with his smile and bright face. His mother is a teacher at nearby kindy.

'Anny, come take your seat and have aome bread. You like the chocolate spread right? Ill make you one. After that, Ill work all of you to school', she offered me a chair next to Delilah, and across Zayn.


'Thank you, Mrs Thompson. Your bread is scrumptious and soft', I smile and take the seat. She gave me her motherly smile and make me one chocolate toast.


We talked and we laughed together, eat, pray and read together at Nanny Thompson's house. At that time, I really fall in love with reading materials especially books. Our nanny usually will read us some stories before our evening nap, and that time I always curious on how it would feel to be a character inside the book.


'Nanny, Can I be a book reader one day?', I asked curiously.
'Oh yes. You can. It is more interesting if you could read the book that you write. It will give a life to that book, and people around you will also be motivates by it'. She looked at me brightly.


I remembered go back to our house, asked mama to buy me a pen and journal book. 'What story will you read Anne?', Zayn asked me durimg recess at school. How on earth did he remember aboit it?


'Dont know yet. But hopefully I can write about our small town, and our beautiful friendship that occurs here', I watched hil looking outside the window. Zayn is 2 years older than me. In fact,Shawn and Rosey also 2 years older than me.

 Only Delilah is a year older than me. They always teased me. because of by braided hair or my ponytail. I told mama not to do that to my hair bit she said i look beautiful with them.


The truth ia, I had always have a crush on Zayn eversince we were little. I just like him. Not because of his kind personality, or his achievement in school but I just like him


I tried very hard to make sure he did not notice me being all over him when we gather around. I try not to remember his smile before I sleep. I try not to show all the writing that I wrote about him in my diary.


He is a person that will never be with me. Im a normal girl with an ordinary dream. He is ao much more than me. So, at that time I will keep him as my first crush, my first person that i liked too much and always be in my heart.


***********

'Take care Anne', he patted my hair gently, while his parents waiting for him.in the car. I tried to hold my tears, and smile as usual. He aso hugged Nanny Thompson and Shawn. He shook hands with Deli and Rosey.


I watched him from a far. Deep doqn, I really want to tell him how I really feel. For once, even Im just 10 at that time, I really want to tell him everything. How am I gonna go through life with this feeling weighing my heart?


'Keep in touch', I yelled and waive him goosbye. 'Sure!! I will miss you Anne!!' he waived back.

Tears coming down fast and hot, as hot as my aching heart.


Dear Zayn,

Im going to tell you someday about my feelimg. Hence, please wait for me as I will wait for you. May God take care of you, you who had stole my heart. 

Anny.


I put down my old diary.

Ten years ago. I somehow

Friday 24 August 2012

Overdue

Semasa jari ini menaip entry ini, kandungan sdah mencecah 40 minggu 2 hari..maksudnya sdah 2 hari saya post due kandungan...seperti yang dinyatakan dalam entry yang lepas, saya langsung tiada rasa sakit berterusan yang membawa maksud akan melahirkan itu. cuma sakit pinggang biasa, sakit ingin ke tandas selalu tapi kadang tu bukan ada yg kluar pun selain kencing...dalam masa yang sama mental dan fizikal ini sedang giat berusaha di sana-sini mencari info tentang perkara2 yang memudahkan untuk bersalin.

Alkisahnya, pergi check up dengan Dr Lim hari Rabu (22/08/2012, hari sepatutnya melahirkan), masih juga sama keadaannya..baby masih selesa d dalam perut ibu. Lalu Dr menyuarakan sesuatu yang sampai sekarang saya masih tak tau mau pilih yang mana. He said that, he is afraid that if i delayed my laboured there will be effect to the baby, although now everything seems normal and fine. So Dr suggest untuk buat induction on Monday, whcis is on 27/08/2012. Time tu saya tdak tau mau ambil keputusan sendiri sbb suami tiada , yang teman masa  tu Mak and adik 2 org. Mak cakap, discusssed with your hubby later. huhu

So, lagi alkisahnya...hehe..saya pg Klinik Ibu dan Anak KKIA tuaran the next day, utk check up sana plak. Nurse yang handle banyak tanya daaa..ok juga actually nurse2 sana. mesra juga tapi sy tdak pasti plak nurse2 d Hosp Likas begitu .huhu.. nnti sy gtau knapa saya cakap bgtu k..so, cek punya cek sy jadi pening sbb nurse tu banyak tanya sdangkan sdah banyak yang trtulis dalam buku putih tu. Then dia refer my case ke Dr d KKIA, saya dpt Dr lelaki india. and i dont like him!!. Totally diff dr Dr Lim n Dr Heong n mana2 Dr yang saya sdah jumpa sebelum ni. huhu.masa scan mmng langsung sepatah haram dia tdak cakap apa2..then dia tulis jak panjang2 dalam buku. bru jak mo bukak mulut tanya soalan then trus dia angkat my buku then said to the nurse there, ok she can wait outside.. what!!??sy cuma smpat tanya, is everything ok Dr? ya..everything is fine dia bilang. then sy kluar dengan blurr..haiyeee..

Pasal nurse d likas hosp tu bukan apa, garang bah most of them d sana. kawan2 yg bersalin sana yg dpt layanan 1st class oklah kot. klu mcm sy punya case ni nda tau cmn dorg handle. maybe bukan semua juga tapi do u dare to take risk?tdak kan untuk baby kita. My aunt sndiri yg kja sana pun suara dia tinggi lau crita pasal cases yg diorg handle. mnakutkan okay..haha..sdahlah kita perlu ketenangan dalam keadaan sekarang...

Okay enuf of talking about people. haha..maybe i take the Damai's Dr punya advice..maybe i choose induction lah kali ni. sbb sy betul risau sangat dgn keadaan baby dalam perut plus tdak sabar mo jumpa baby tembam saya..hehe..tadi pun nurse ada cakap my baby ni kuat tdr siang n berjaga malam..dia boleh tau dr degupan jantung.. so , sy choose utk buat induce semasa bby masih sihat ni.Apa pun mau tunggu hubby balik dlm weekend ni lah bru boleh bincang balik..Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan lah

Wednesday 15 August 2012

Ceritera ...

salam Ramadhan ke-28..^^

memandangkan blog ni nda berapa faymes, so malas mo update...haha..anyway Ramadhan sudah mencecah ke minggu2 terakhir..semoga sda banyak amalan n ibadah yang dikumpul. Setahun lagi mau tunggu ni Ramadhan. Sama juga dengan kandungan sekarang..sudah mencecah 39 minggu 2 hari...klu ikut kiraan ada 8 hari lagi mau due..neves sebenarnya sebab tanda2 sakit itu ini tiada..sakit pinggang tiada, sakit macam mau period tiada...agak resah sebabnya kebanyakan kawan yang due date around saya sdah bersalin..huhu...tapi Allah sdah atur bah ni kan, so kita redha and tunggu sajalah perancangan and strategi Yang Maha Esa ni..cumanya setiap malam sekarang memang nda lepas solat hajat. Bukan mau bgtau yg diri ini baik, cumanya salah satu untuk memohon kemudahan dan keringanan beban kita bila masanya tiba kelak..hehe^^

Cerita tentang puasa, memang saya tdak mampu full. apatah lagi masa2 akhir ni. Boleh klu paksa tapi kesian dengan org dalam perut ni..dia haus n lapar..banyak benda yang ibu n baby mahu makan sebenrnya tapi tahan kalau boleh. Ikut mana yang perlu saja, sbb tahu juga kadang2 mak bising sebab terlmpau makan. en suami plak kadang tu tengok mcm malas jak layan permintaan yang banyak. Ka atau feeling2 ni sbb en suami  pun bukan rajin makan juga.huhu. so , ari ni sampai habis ramadhan kali tdak puasa cuma akan teruskan usaha membaca surah2 perlu tu. huhu..sedih banyak mau ganti lagi tahun depan.

Cerita tentang baby.. Ada kawan bgtau dia kena ceaseran masa baby pertama sebab pelvic susah mau buka..aduyai, ngilu i dengar..lau boleh mo elak lah ni perkara..hari selasa pg KKIA Tuaran, nurse cakap klu sudah lebih seminggu terpaksa hantar masuk likas and kena induce bagi paksa bersalin. Ya Allah takutnya dengar tapi buat muka cool n tenang saja . takut la mo emo2, takut BP naik ka , apa kah..huhu..maka saya pun berjalan lah setiap hari. Maybe harini mau jalan lagi.klu boleh biarlah jalan sorang2 d 1B tu.. sbb senang sikit bergerak teda accompany mau heret sana sini..lgpun mau cr last minit jubah.Hubby sdah bagi duit untuk beli..alhamdulillah yeay!!..

Masa tulis entry ni rasa ngantuk2, sakit perut juga sbb jam 2.30 pagi sda lapar..tapi jam 4 bru pg makan..angin sdah masuk separuh jadi makan pun rasa tidak sedap. Sampai sekarang rasa sakit masih ada...okay, harus stop dulu sbb mau siapkan urusan rumah. Mak mo balik KB, tp malam ni ada kenduri d rumah mentua. So, bepikir siapakah yang dapat hantr saya ulang alik Putatan..atau kalau tiada mau hantar saya drive sendiri jaklah pinjam keta Adik sbb keta dia jak auto..haha..kesimpulannya, saya memang berdikari sepanjang pregnancy ni. Sebab saya malas mahu menyusahkan orang lain, saat-saat akhir ni semua orang pun bz juga..

Saturday 21 July 2012

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

assalam dan salam ramadhan...

syukur alhamdulillah sudah menjangkau ke ramadhan kedua dan masih diberikan kesempatan  dan kekuatan melaksanakan tanggungjawab Allah yang satu ini..Ramadhan kali ini ada seronok dan agak kurang seronok..yang seronoknya, berpuasa bersama suami dan barakahnya sangat besar..yang agak kurang seronok, 1st time tdak bersahur dan berbuka dengan keluarga tercinta. huhu, rindu mak masak pagi2, manakala kmi semua masih diulit mimpi..haha...sebenrnya suami sdha pesan, kalau larat puasa teruskn, jngn sampai memudaratkan diri sendiri. kelmarin masa 1 ramadhan, mmng agak terseksa sikit sbb baby tidak biasa berlapar kan tapi mau juga didik dia dr dalam perut untuk tahu nilai ramadhan tu cmn..jadi hati banyak memjuk dengan kasih sayang, supaya berpuasa dengan ibu nya ni, walaupun saat saat akhir masa tu agak terseksa sedikit...berdoa terus kepada Allah agar semuanya berjalan lancar..Alhamdulillah berjaya melepasi ujian hari pertama..hehe

syukur biarpun sedang berpuasa baby dalam ni tidak berhenti bergerak...maklumlah ruang perut agak luas sedikit sbb tdak makan  pada waktu siang kan. hehe..jadi bby bebas bergerak, smpi rasa perut bergoncang..sangat suka..ada lebih kurang 4 minggu lagi (mngikut EDD lah..) untuk jumpa baby tersayang..sangat tdak sabar, dan dalam masa yang sama sangat berdoa dengan sebaiknya agar semua dipermudahkan dan diberikan jalan yang sepatutnya...lebih kurang 3 minggu lagi untuk balik jumpa keluarga di kampung, dan persiapan untuk balik pun sdah 60% sedia..hehe...

baiklah, semoga kita semua mendapat kebaikan daripada ramadhan kali ni..

wasalam


Monday 2 July 2012

WEIGHT GAIN

salam to all...

by reading the entry title , im sure that all of u already know what i wanted to say about...at 33 weeks of gestation, total weight gain sdah mncecah 8 kg..waduh..mmbuatkan langkah ku nampak pelik dan nafas semput-semput...ini lah akibatnya klu berat sediakala..i mean, sebelum preggy pun sdah berat..huhu..wlupun nmpak mcm sikit tu number kan, but still klu bulih berat tdak cecah 80..ini, 80++ sdah sbb kan berat sebelum mngndung pun sdah 75 above..kuang kuang...

actually pertambhn berat badan ni bukan lah drpd kesalahan ibu mngndung, yg kononnya bnyak mkn..no..its actually berbagi2 berat dengan baby, the baby's amnion sac, plasenta lagi...n sikit saja actually lemak2 ibu yg bertambh...but still, extreme weight gain can surely be the lead to another door of diseases..sy pling takut kna tu diabetis n high blood pressure..klu kna diabetis mau cucuk jarum d pusat kita sndiri o every 2 weeks..menakutkan..high blood pressure plak ada possibility untuk kndungan trpaksa dibedah during kelahiran dan sngt mmbhykan kesihatan ibu...

klu ikut nafsu, mmng bnyak mau mkn..time knyang pun mau mkn..mcm tadi, ms g bank in duit d RHB, trlintas mo beli big apple..beli yg 6 ketul lagi tu..bukan alang2...smpi rumah half saja d mkn..muak terus..aduiyai..klu smpi esok nda d mkn, mau bg anak murid lah..sbb ada jnji ngan budak2 yg lulus BI sem 1 untuk belanja durg..by the way ada 3 org saja yg lulus..haha..susah kan soalan kunun..i pmbuat soalnnya kan..adui, susah ka plak?sian dorg..nevermind, yg pnting ujian bru ni mau separuh dr kelas lulus..almklumlah bukan kelas pndi kan jd lau lulus 11 org dr 23 org pun kira sangt bersyukur sudah..

menyimpang!!!..anyway, pasal berat..tdak dinafikan mmng ada rasa risau ..especially bila rasa tgn malas mo angkat, kaki cepat lenguh sbb tdak dapat angkat bdn tp azam saya sdah kuat, mau fullu breastfeed my bby for 6 months ,  supya boleh susut dengan segera..haha..

ok, smbung later..tata

Monday 7 May 2012

....update!!....update!!!

..haiisshhhhh....payah mun rusak broadband ani...payah kan ku mau berblogg..haha..cakap brunie nda pass...
bukan rosak actually, tapi ni sbb bayarn berganda yang tdak diketahui mcmn boleh berganda..almaklumlah klu MAXIS ni, ada charge tersembunyi ni..mau update pasal baby pun payah..huhu

nda lama lagi cuti, yeay!!..hehe..o by the way, scan 24 weeks sda last week..n dr sdah nampak jantina. bilang dr baby boy..yeayyyy...mmng mngharap boy sebab kmi ramai sangat cewek2 d rumah..hehe..insyaallah semua dipermudahkan segalanya...mau masuk trimester ketiga sdah bulan depan. baby pun gerak aktif sdah d perut especially klu time2 malam masa mau tidur, sana lah dia main bola ka apakah d dalam nda tau..hehe..semoga anak mumy sihat n mmbesar bak juara..hehe

d sekolah kerja ada rilek sikit, sekarang pun online guna broadband kawan d sekolah..mngirim email dengan kawan actually jd sambil2 lah..sbb ownernya sdah bg green light juga..hehe...mnggu exam jadi nda banyak cerita..cuma, mnggu lonely-lonely ni sbb hubby teda d rumah pg panjat gunung...saya doakan suami tercinta selamat semuanya..dapat pergi n balik dengan selamat..sbb i rindu jauh jauh klu lama-lama...hehe

okay, tu jak boleh update now..mau tulis bnyak2 teda idea ni klu d sekolah..harap2 mnggu ni boleh guna sdah broadband..huhu...

Thursday 12 April 2012

Teringin...

..apa yang teringin tu??..banyakkkk sekali!!!..most probably teringin mo balik rumah sekarang ni..waduh, mcm  jammed ni otak klu nda balik rumah, tdr d katil kesayanagn , peluk c patrick (1st gift dr hubby masa dolu2.hehe) dan mkn masakan my mum...sgt boring sdah mkn masakan sndri n masakan luar juga..senang cerita homesick la bah sda ni..hehe

tp kes teringin ni, lain dr yg biasa plak..lama lagi mo Ramadhan, apatah lagi raya kan, sy plak mcm tiap hari sekarang ni terbau2 tu bau biskut yg kna baking , bau biskut masuk oven yg sngt menyelerakan.waduh, tringt plak biskut tat nanas wazie buat dulu (mesti wazie baca ni)..sy sdah tringt biskut tu masa belum tau wazie mngndung lagi (mcm bercerita dengan wazie plak) hoho..berusaha mncari  tat nanas sini teda yg mnyelerakan, mo cr CNI pun teda, sbb ada kawan sy beli biskut tat nanas CNI punya sedap...mcm mo buat biskut kunun tp ya ampun, punya payah mo ks gerak ni tulang2 beli barang plus nda tau sbnrnya cmn mo buat biskut yg sedap sebb selalu nya sambung buat biskut after my mum uli2 tepung..haha...ei, mcm mo order biskut n makan2 time boring tp ada kah org mo buat tu..mau minta buatkan org tp nnti selalu fikir nnti rasa rugi plak klu nda sama dgn yg wazie buat..(na..mmng mau kontek wazie pas ni)..hehe..

selain tat nenas..sy teringin lagi mo mkn tu pajeri nenas..ala, nanas yg kna masak cmpur ayam or ikan masin tu kadang2..wah, berckp ttngnya pun mau kluar air liur sdah..kli klu kna kasi masak tu, satu periuk sy punya saja tu..hehe..trlmpau la plak kan..tp kli klu sdah 7 bulan ke atas buli sdah request sama mama kali tu kan..hehe..sy bukan mo mkn sgt nanas tu, tp bau masakan tu yg bikin bukak selera ni..hehe.

tp part biskut tu mmng sy mau try order dr org lah dulu ni, atau pun beli yg d kdi tp d kdo nda sedap mmng, serius...klu mo order kli order selain tat nenas supaya nda kecewa rasa lain. klu wazie sihat walafiat bolehlah minta wazie kan..wazie kannnnn..hehehehe...